where is he gone?

confussion, hate, tears all mix together
my mind is such a mess
dont know what to do
dont know what to say

wishing he was still part of me
but he seems not to be
as tears fall down my eyes
i scream his name

for the first time in history he doesnt hear me
as i hold my puls tight to me no one is around
i reach out to him but he is no where to find

wish time goes back to that night
wish i never got that glass in my hand
wish nothing ever happened

all i feel is confussion now and i wish it goes away
but what ever i say to myself it does help
only he knows what to say
but he aint here today